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Parents, aren't they supposed to be our thrustful person in the world to us? So why sometimes they look like they really don't care about you?
My dad came here today to have a dinner with me but I wasn't in the mood to talk with him, to be honest, I'm never in the mood, but today I had a terrible night and didn't sleep very good.
He tries to speak with me but I honestly was so tired that I didn't answer with all my emotions, he obviously notice, and asked me to talk with him but I wasn't very happy.
He sat on the couch and says to me to sit with him but I have a lot of school activities to do, so I didn't answer him.
it was terrible, terrible, he sat in my side in the dining table (bc I often do my homework there) and says he was leaving and for me to speak with him but I only could say short answers, this was our entire conversation, before,during and after the dinner.
He left my house a couple minutes ago, and now the only thing I can think about it's how dumb I am to not talking with him, cause it's really rare to him gets here in the week, and now I wasted this.
I know he wanted me to feel guilty and he got it, I'm fucking sad and I know he isn't the best dad to me and my mom, but honestly everything makes worse, I never know when my parents are on my side or not, because both of them makes me feel guilty for living. I feel like everytime I need to choose one favorite because everyone always has a favorite member of the family but I just can't, I feel like they are both manipulative, like they both are trying to mess with my head so that I see one of them as the wrong one (and sometimes I feel like my dad is my favorite, because he is always been more ''receptive'' to the things I like but I also don't like how he doesn't realize he affects people).
probably nothing I said makes sense cuz I used a lot of words in english that I don't understand, anyways, just trying to make me feel better with this situationnnnnnn
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MegaDalton3000
I dont really have any advice, though I can say I relate. It sucks so bad when parents try to get you to hate the other, especially when you are young, what is one supposed to do about it?! So frustrating. Eventually we get to grow up and leave our parent's drama behind, so just hang on in there, this isnt permanent.
I'm so happy knowing that I'm not the only one, thank you so much for that
by ruminori; ; Report
MITTENS
(IK ur bloggy says to not look at it.. nut I got too curious so im very sorry about it) You can try to talk it out with your parents on how you feel about this situation, and if not in the mood to talk, try writing it on paper or text. They shouldn't make you feel like that and should make you feel safe in the environment. Its better to atleast speak it to either of them, but you can wait that out until you are comfortable to do it. I hope they understand how you feel and change
(BUT NOT NUT WTHSGISHS I HATE MY SPELLING HELP ME)
by MITTENS; ; Report
thank you, and, don't say that, I bet my spelling is worse than yours lol
(sorry if I don't know how to react, like, it's been a long time when you texted this and I just got motivation to open spacehey today so....erm........ even when I said to not look into, i rlly wanted a advice at the moment..)
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