wanting 2 cry

first blog :3 

my name is aj/rin 18f <333

listening 2 demolition lovers by mcr and i just felt like typing about myself and where i'm going to get myself in this lifetime. I honestly think i will never be able to make it fully in life and the days that i do think about it i wanna cry because i cant take it all. this life is very scary and it makes me dread everyday but for some reason i still think life is beautiful. all the stresses and emotions toward life is what makes it beautiful but it makes me not want it anymore. the stresses and the bad parts of life i cant handle. how can i handle such a beauty but such a creature.