Picky artists scare the LIVING out of me.

I love art. I've been so interested in it since I was a tod. I've been improving my skills and whatnot and learning new things and everytime I finish something I feel proud because like shit I literally did all that. 

I feel like this is just some normal thing but whatever, it won't hurt if I talk about it. When I find out about someone else I know or some person random who's around my age who does art I feel a little insecure like a stupid baby. Really dumb to think in that way, I know, giggle at me.

I feel like this all got worse quite recently. There's this person (I have NO idea who they r on like a deep friend sort of level) but I was with friends and they apparently knew them and they said "yo guys, wanna see what I drew??" and I was like oh yay art (I wasn't THAT jealous at the time stfu) and they showed their shit which was fire :3! It was cool ^_^ no doubt! I wasn't like "grrr... I SHOULD HAVE THAT SKILL RGRAAAAAAEFBCJHBJH GEV AHM AHM RRRRRHHHHHHAA" I like it and I complimented it a ton like a normal person until this little arrogant little cunt pulled out another and then another and then ANOTHER like when will this agony end but then they were like focusing on me and asked like if i drew and i said yah!! :3 they asked too look in this little journal thing I use all the time for drawing and i handed it to her and i thought things were going well. I never had a single problem with my journal until miss royal decided to criticise my art like she was Koleen?? what a snob. Her ass was all "erm! this is weird!!" IM SO SORRY THAT I DONT DRAW THE TYPICAL ANIME MANGA GENSHIN IMPACT STYLE #PINTEREST AESTHETIC THAT YOU HAVE IM SORRY THAT I DARE HAVE A DIFFERENT STYLE AND MULTIPLE MORE IN THE FUCKING VAGINA FOLDS OF MY ART JOURNAL WOAH.

"this is weird.."
"ehe! i dun like this.."

"wth is that!! ZOMG!!"

"oh..!"

"I would never draw like this"

"It's missing ____"

"OH?? erm.. that doesn't belong there..."

I felt so bad I tell you I wanted to take this picky fairy ass nonce and rip that dreaded mouth off she reached her talking limit. I've never had anyone come up to me, take my book, look at it and then go full on BLAST on what i did. I'm just going describe my journal since I cant even be arsed to put up a photo. Basically what's in is like a lot of cut outs, nonsense, notes, different styles. I PRACTICE IN THERE DAMNIT EXPECT SHIT TO BE SCRIBBLED AROUND. I love my journal, I like how unorganised it is and how chunky it is, to me it just shows how much I'm dedicated to it :3 but I see miss folded up and neatly organised could never. The difference in our sketchbooks and all that is so starkly different and I didn't diss her in her face about how fucking bland it was yk why? cuz its RUDE bitch face get it right dont make me nail it into your ear so you can hear it every waking moment. I swear it would be difference if I said "|hey, be honest about my art, infact VIOLENTLY SAY SHIT AND SNICKER TO YOUR FRIENDS AND BE QUOTE BRUTALLY HONEST on my styles!" okay, i asked for it in the quote I just provided but irl but I DIDN'T. like I didn't even ask for a thought, a suggestion, NO. You asked to SEE not go fucking grodon ramsey and evil simon cowell I'm not on britians got talent.

I was so tempted in just saying something nasty but I can't be all"grr, ur a poopy dick face!! ur art has the depth of a paper bag!! barbarbarbarbar!!" because I'm asking for more but I sat there like a little shit and just "okay, I'll do it."

She was in a gc with me and my friends and she blasted EVERY1 with her latest arts and shit, idc send ur feet i dunno but it makes me so upset to see the same cunt insult my friend's style too. My friend who's in the gc is a beginner, dont expect them to magically pop out the vagina and then brainstorm each art technique in the book, art takes time. They send their progress and im not being nice and shit Im being gen it looks good and they r doing well but NO it's acc not.. cuz.. erm! the judge dug her heels and said "NO!! not sexy smut wattpad fanfic manly man fuckboy enough! I'm done I'm done 

If you don't shut the fuck up, D, I will go to your house and force feed you fresh led from a rigid tipped pencil, that's a promise i swear.