Life with strict Christian parents pt.3

Hey so since the other lines life hasn’t gotten any better… So my brother, we’ll call him Peter for now, just came back from my grandfathers house a couple of days ago and it’s been literal hell. My grandfather is a pastor and apparently Peter was only at his house cause he devoted his life to Christ but I don’t understand. He disrespects my parents, he disowned our own brother and said “he’s not my brother, he’s people..”, he called me the ACTUAL ‘N’ WORD, and he still listens to music he’s not supposed to. My grandfather is a Pentecostal Puerto Rican pastor and if you were ever at one of those kinda churches you it’s strict and very judgmental and one on the most specific rules in that church, or any church I think, is DONT LISTEN TO EARTHLY MUSIC cause that’s the devils specialty or something, I don’t know. Well he’s a fucking fraud and a liar and the only reason he’s doing this is cause he’s about to go to jail for stealing a car from his job and he needs someone there with him just in case if something happens. But im not going to be cause the same way he showed hatred toward me when he told me to k!łł myself and how he got me Ħ!gh when I didn’t want to and how he called me ugly and fat and annoying and a freak and a mistake im going to hate him for hurting me and my family cause at the end of the day he’s one of the reasons I can’t hold anything with blades or I can’t stand on a cliff or anywhere high without getting thoughts or shaking. | 1 John 4:20 |