omg... (tw: blood, gore, unaliving)

today is easter in orthodox chruch

yet i dreamed about being in a room with lotta people who stood before some tables where food is placed on the plates, we all wore dirty yellow shirts and the room was dirty yellow and the walls kinda eroded... the lightning was very weak and at some point it even flickered 

anyways... at one end of the bedroom there stood a guy (he had like... 34 years idk man) and he was dressed in dirty cyan tshirt and he had blonde short hair and he watched us, and told us what to do

i was right next to him behind my table and next to me was my... sister???? idk how she was called but she was prolly 2 or 3 years younger than me while i was 14 in the dream

we had to eat something disgusting and i rebelled saying "this is disgusting" and the guy heard me saying "oh then what do you want instead?" and i said "i'd rather eat shit than eat this..." and he said "oh you want shit? here it is" and HE LITERALLY GAVE ME AND MY SISTER SHIT TO EAT   i mean fair point but what the fuck man 

and then i started FUMING i started yelling at him about how he is a disgusting piece of shit that should be ki11ed at a guillotine and his body gaven to ravens?????? like wtf

then a REAL RAZOR FROM GUILLOTINE FELL ON MY "SISTER"

oh my god, when that happend i SNAPPED i started screaming and throwing things at him and i missed him and then he got in the middle of the room saying "look who is getting angry" i got a chair and i threw it at his head and he fell down and i jumped on him and started twisting his arm with all my might and it caused for it to literally fall off because it turned blue and the veins got cut  then i started beating his body up and never stopped until i woke up

i was like, WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST DREAM ABOUT AND ON EASTER????????? WHAT THE HELL MANNNNN

my dreams are getting weirder and weirder

i cannot even consider this a dream anymore, this is a pure nightmare...