The Journey is Hard but worth it!

(quoted the voice in my head help me word)

There once was a little kid who never grew up. He lived elsewhere from where he belonged. One day he decided to kill himself and he was possessed not to, so he gave up, and decided to wait for God's timing cause he hated getting locked up for his very last attempt.

So he spends most of his days just talking with the heavens and he had a vital responsibility for not only his heaven home but his heavenly kids. Its cause he learned he was the first heavenly father who in the past volunteered to help save everyone from what could've been ugly chaos. Through his self sacrifice in a different way he often died from his sickening health and as an earthbound ghost, too, many times. He was found to raise from the grave many times too, as if death for him was non existent he finally woke up and realized his story has a lot of potential.

He always dreamed of becoming everyone's hero though his journey was much more scarce than heaven was to know at that time he granted everyone boundless opportunities to grow skyward. Yes that's heaven. For if he knew of his past self oh was it hard? It was. For his helpful amnesia helped him kick his suicidal tendencies in the butt. He doesn't want to die too harsh he'd rather pass peaceful and on 'gods timing'. Needless to say it just never worked out that way.

Hes just mainly homesick (For 19 years and on going) for the fine people in his heavenly home to bond with and take his time to heal and get his old earth life all downloaded. Because it helps him to constantly forget or else he would be too obsessed with dying, and that would get in the way of his earthly quest. Though he found it hard and too much to handle for his love life was scarce it mattered tremendously to say shes been there for him countless times in his head and that pressed on his mind a lot for if she were to go re-meet him for they were married in heavens plane before. She helps him erase his fears, But oh how his body still pains for a lot of help.

He needs to decrease his depression. What would help him is to take the high road and just let everyone in heaven save him back. Which he is doing nicely. His main quest revolved in being like the guinea pig for gaining all the knowledge on how to set real laws heaven style. That means he gathered up the diseases of the ugly chaos folk dirtying up the environment of which the all has lived. In order to gain a potency so broad his life has become doses of like vaccines for heaven folk in their very short downloads within the mind, so hes the only one who self sacrificed mainly like that. the self sacrifices not only saved heaven folk. But even the non magic folk whom is still like family to him as it is us.