periods suck badly.

vent/rant thingy about my period n my bf

i can’t feel anything romantically again, i always lose feelings for mg boyfriend on my cycle. i just don’t feel attracted to him, he irritates me a lot and i can’t help the way i feel but he just ain’t all that to me at all. I just don’t see him as my “boyfriend” right now to me, he’s just another friend like ofc i get my feelings back afterwards and we’re chilling but it’s so awful feeling like this and the way i treat him cause i don’t treat him lovingly at all cause it feels so fake to do so. Like telling him “I love you” or acting lovey dovey when i don’t feel the same way is so vile and i always tell him i’m not attracted to you right now cause what can a girl do exactly? she can’t just lie to her man and say she’s in love with him, it’ll break his heart to sugarcoat it then be 100% with him. and that’s all i do is be straightforward with him about my fucked up body and the way it affects me mentally and physically. I feel really bad for it but it’s js how i am as a person, i always recommend he find a better girl without my problems cause all i do is hurt him when i’m on my cycle and i’m so sick of it, sick of myself tbh.