5/4/24 12:20am

guys this is a special entry, tonight just made me think a lot. i feel so horrible like i need to find sanctuary somewhere tomorrow night because my brother is having people over who i absolutely can’t see, but it’s been harder than expected. i’ve been thinking a lot about my past “relationship” lately. i don’t count it as a relationship to me because literally he just called me his girlfriend one night and i was so out of it and just didn’t say anything to contradict it, i had no idea we were “dating”. he was not great, I think I’ll spend a lot of my life over the next few years trying to get over everything he did to me. I would like to think that this is my first real relationship because honestly it is, i have never been treated this good before. i love you billow <33.