i need help pls

i wish i wasn't born with OCD or autism. i wish i could think like a normal 13-year-old who has normal thoughts and normal feelings. not like some sort of alien who craves the attention i never got from anyone. i wish i was treated like a human instead of a dog who's always trying to get pet and yet bits and claws at the peoples hand. i wish i was human, not a demon , not a animal , not alien..but a human who can walk outside without having a breakdown.