mental illness

So i happen to be one of the many unfortunate humans to suffer with B.P.D. A breif synapsus of this disease is Borderline Personality Disorder, which is a mental illness that can make it hard for people to control their emotions. This can lead to increased impulsivity, which can affect a person's self-esteem and relationships. honestly this is a very poor discription of it lets try again,Behavioral: antisocial behavior, compulsive behavior, hostility, impulsivity, irritability, risk taking behaviors, self-destructive behavior, self-harm, social isolation, or lack of restraintMood: anger, anxiety, general discontent, guilt, loneliness, mood swings, or sadnessPsychological: depression, distorted self-image, grandiosity, or narcissismAlso common: thoughts of suicideIn short i am evidently TOXIC i need help ive been screaming for help for years but my husband makes my home life harder my mother my father both are working just to live to help take care of my kids and let me go into in patient housing so i vent on here i really wish i had more people like me to talk to or something. On the b.p.d note i shaved my head again and am going to dye it again because of the shifting self image issues going on another crash diet that i know is gonna end in me binge eating this visious cycle i live everyday out in the open yet no one notices.