difficulties

ive been having some personal issues now for a minute, first it was weed and the craving of other drugs, alcohol, now I'm facing arrest on a few charges, the days get shorter and shorter, my short term memory has escaped me and it did so a while ago, over 2 years to be exact, I no longer remember my regular day to day activities, if you ask me what I did yesterday I couldn't tell you at all, my best friend is losing his mind, he's been plagued with suicidal thoughts, alcohol, self harm, you name it, all these life experiences at such a young age have simply been gradually decreasing my confidence in a good life, I have realized that there's some people that genuinely try but cannot change for a while and im one of those people, I try hard everyday but it doesn't seem to amount to much, check up on your friends.