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i had to delete instagram to HOPEfully stop myself from picking ip my phone to check if he tected me yet WHICJ HE HASNT BTW. i fear i have too much wrong with me to make him want to leave me, probably why i dont wanna talk about it i dont want him to see me as an unstable FREAKY ALPHA (yeah im an alpha but im not like the others) this is suppposed to last til we die guys OR ELSE