There is this one dream I always think about

Context: I was going like some self-discovery at the time after going through a breakup of a situationship that was previously a relationship

I woke up in a room that I wasn't familiar with but like I felt safe and warm in bed. As I got to school, I was greeted by a boy that I hugged for some reason? I'm not that close to any boys and at the time I was in an all-girl's school. Anyways, I felt like I knew him very well and it was like we were inseparable, then for some reason out of nowhere we started slashing people?? Like killing people around us in school and it was like clockwork like we were used to it and were confident in not getting caught. 

It was kinda fuzzy for a bit than a friend that I am close to irl showed up in my room and we were having a sleep over and I admit that I have going on a murder spree with him, my friend freaks out and threatens to tell the police and that guy was there too and as my friend left my room to get water or something, he threatened to kill her too and was like threatening me to keep an eye on my friend and I just remember feeling the same way I did when my ex would tell me to shut up and stuff. 

Another snippet of the dream that I remember is being in a rather forested area with him and as we hunted down this girl who was screaming for help, I suddenly like snapped out of it?? Like I stopped feeling comfortable or in control and I felt an overwhelming sense of guilt and had actual memories of me in class irl and real memories I have of my friends and school. I started to like have an anxiety attack and curled up against a tree, I heard him catch up with the girl we were chasing and off her as like im screaming for him to stop but he does it anyway than he runs up to me after throwing the body aside and hugged me really tight and started to kiss my head as I cried??? SO YEAH I WOKE UP IN TEARS FOR SOME REASON and I just keep thinking back to this dream because it was so closely related to my reality and I can't even place the guy's face and I can't remember his name for the life of me.