im tired

im tired of everything

everything around me either brings me anxiety or anger

i barely feel pure joy now

i want to go back to ruin myself because somehow i find comfort in that

i need to hurt myself because i know that its me hurting myself and not someone i'm supposed to love

i actually cannot keep going

it's almost over

its always almost over but it never actually ends

i want it to end

soon it will actually end

when i finally fucking decide it's gonna end it WILL end 

get out of my life

forever

i can't stand your presence anymore

i can't stand mine either

so i'll go and please the both of us