Sexuality Confusion/Lists

Hey y'all I'm back!!! I haven't been active cause of school and work and crap but anywayss

I realized I'm having another issue, though the first time I had this (like 5th grade lmao) it was more that I had trouble accepting that I liked girls. Now I don't care about that, I am just confused about whether or not I like guys xDD 

Because like, I realized so many things that make me wonder if I even like guys, but at the same time I think I could just be bisexual with a HEAVY preference for girls. Like huge. 

So i decided to make a list of the reasons why I think I might be a lesbian, and another for why I think I might not be: 

WHY I MIGHT BE:

1. Guys give me "the ick" way too easily/ it is way easier to stop talking to a guy when there's something that I don't like about him. And this could be ANYTHING like, wearing yeezys, listening to a specific group, liking certain food. Like, DUMB SHIT that shouldn't make me not want to be with someone. Whereas with girls, the only time I felt somewhat off about a girl it was because I thought she was being weird about drag shows but it was a miscommunication and we talked about it like a day later like it was fine. If she was a guy, I probably would've stopped talking to her wayyy earlier because of some stupid shit probably. 
2. Texting guys when they want a relationship feels so exhausting and draining and ughhhh but I'm fine with texting a girl when I like her and everything. I mean, I suck at texting in general and I've forgotten to text back people that I actually care about and everything but jesus it's like 10000x harder when it's a dude who just keeps flirting with you
3. I never try to talk to guys that I may deem attractive. Like ever. And if they talk to me, any "attraction" (or what I think is attraction; hence the next list) is gone very quickly. Like, especially if they flirt with me. If I find a girl attractive or whatever, I actually hope she talks to me and stuff. I'll maybe even compliment her to try to start a conversation!
4. Girls and like not dudes make me so nervous. Like I'm already nervous to talk to people but it's a special kind of nervous when a pretty girl (basically any girl lmao) talks to me. Like i overthink what i say so much. With guys, I'll still overthink but it's more like I hope I don't come off as rude or something like that, like general worries. With girls it's I hope i don't sound weird or make her uncomfortable or anything like that if that makes sense
5. I find it way easier to say men are ugly or can be ugly than women. Of course, it's hard for me to say someone is ugly on the spot just because I have a hard time finding people genuinely fully ugly, but I can definitely say a guy is uglier than a girl.
6. I think this is similar to numbers 1 and 2 just because when a guy immediately starts flirting with me I get so annoyed. Like at least try to be my friend first. But then also if a guy friend were to start flirting with me, I would also get upset because we're just friends. 
7. Thinking about marrying a man in the future (if I even get married) just feels off. I don't think I can imagine a life with a husband?? Ofc it sounds nice but I can't seem to fully imagine myself marrying a man right now
8. When I first realized I liked girls, I would genuinely get so sad at the fact that I felt like I couldn't marry a woman. I thought that my family would never accept that and I just couldn't deal with the idea of having to marry a man because my family wouldn't accept the (hypothetical) girl that i wanted to marry. 

WHY I MIGHT NOT BE:

1. I've found guys attractive and cute before. I've seen a ton of guys that I though were cute.
2. Maybe I just haven't tried hard enough to talk to guys and I'm too hard on them? 
3. I think I've had crushes on guys before. Again, I'm not sure if this is an actual attraction or what. Like, there was this coworker who started talking to me and stuff and he seemed pretty nervous and cute so I was like okay when he started flirting with me. But then that "okayness" only lasted for about one work day and I started dreading when he would come up to talk to me. I think maybe I just feel flattered and I think it's a crush? 
4. This one is a bit TMI but I can be i guess attracted to male...parts??? Ofc women can have those too but idk. This one is the most confusing to me personally but I don't think I could go too into it on here
5. This one is linked to number 7 in the previous list. I think the idea of a husband sounds nice, the same with a wife. Like having someone there for the rest of your life that cares about you and you care about them sounds nice. What if I just haven't met a guy that has made me feel like I could marry him yet?

Sorry for yapping for so long, thank you if you've read this far. I'm probably going to edit more reasons later or maybe even delete it but yeah. I'm so confused xDDD