A Cluster of my Most Recent Thoughts! - Oh Wow, You Must Really Care

I don't like writing about myself publicly. I think it's just something that fumentates our selfishness and makes our toughts be way to much about ourselves. I don't like that now all we do is care about our apperence, about how we behave, about how people may percive us for what we truly are. I don't like it. People should care more about eachother. And I'm guilty of this,after all, I'm writing about myself and my experiences. After all, I have a profile, religiously programed, with information about me no one cares about. Althought, I still do it. 

Individualism can be a good thing. Be independent from things people sell, be yours, but it also can lead to this bubble we create, this bubbble everyone is in today, this thing... No one cares about anyone else today. Today? Why only today? For the past years, decades, people have been losing interest in eachother, other individuals are only there to serve our nessessities. What we learn is how to work with people, how to make them satisfact you. Everyone work towards their own desires. 

Isn't that just human nature, thought? Maybe, I'm not any kind of scientist, any expert, to tell you it isn't. I'm just someone who thinks. But maybe, we could overcome that primitive feeling and be better. We are better than this. We can be empathetic. 

People have cared for eachother all throughtout history, and you could have heard a million times from someone from an older generation that "back then it was better, and everone knew eachother" and just not cared, still, I listened. And I've been hearing the stories, thinking of how would it be if I knew all my neighbors, because I don't, and I lived in a village all my life, in a house, not an appartment, thought, I barelly know their faces. What I'm trying to say is, I'm kinda tired of... people being selfish, thinking they only need themselves, thinking that they absolutely need to share everything, and I hate that i feel this way too.

Also, because no one wants to be like everyone else, no one wants to be just one more, even if they try to. No one wants that. And everytime I see a movie that is trying to say that, trying to express that we should be "authentic", i just go throught this phase were I try to change  my apperences onlice and in real life. Then i think of how I'm being like everyone else doing this, trying to change just becuase i saw someone saying it. Next, I think that "no, I'm doing the right thing", but it ultimatly comes to me: Why am I trying to appeal some imaginary person? Some imaginary audence, that might become real, in my head. 

Then I think of so many things i did where i only cared about myself, how if I do something i don't' care about it's consequences to others. I only care when it will afect someone that i talk to, or interact with. And what about the other millions and billions of people that I don't know? do they not deserve to be satisfied just because they never crossed eyes with my being? Abslolutely not. 

I may be overexaggerating, I may be oversharing too... I deserve to fulfill some of my desires because then life is gonna be meaningless. It's meaningless for an atheist like me not to do what i like maybe. I guesss we should find a balance. With all this bullshit said, I actually think Im getting better at it. 

I think I'm getting better at being more selfconsious. And I just wanted to write a blog... About anything really, as I just think I really haven't posted any in a while and I missed writing an actual blog text. 

Kisses and stuff uhm... Good night, good morning and good afternonn to however has the pacience of a saint to read my nonsense. There may be a shit load of mistakes and typos or whatever, just ignore.