do FUCKING NOT read this if you're triggerred or worried :)

I am a idiot

I should have a cone hat says "dummy" on it and put it on

I need to get a chair to sit to face the corner 

and get too close to it so anyone can laugh at me and face some awful things that I done or act very awful

the songs are getting louder in my head

The corner looks scary and creepy but, I see disturbing images in my head

I'm sorry for being a awful, terrible, bad monster that I am, same as stuff I did, I can't change my old past self, I miss my dead best friend and last year suck and same as this year right now

I love to hate myself and I never stop hating myself, I am a terrible person and very awful.

if I look at myself in the mirror, I would broke the glass or myself said "I look terrible." or it broke the glass itself because how awful am i

I can't help it. I don't need help.

not depressed yet :)

Je suis tellement horrible :)