early poem 4/26

(I lowkey can't see what i'm typing so bare with me here)

I miss you

I miss my 'best friend'

I miss being excited to see you during the day

But our friendship was like a double-edge sword..

both staying and leaving would hurt me no matter what I try to do.

I realized a long time ago that you no longer didn't care for me, that our friendship was growing ill.

I see you in the hallways, it makes me wonder just how fast I would've made amendments with you if i didn't care for myself

but i'm not a selfless person.

a selfless me would be dead.

a selfless person would still be weeping in my sorrows

how dare I rely on you.

she who doesn't care for communication, she who doesn't care for mutualization

I have nothing against you, but it's not worth mending a bridge that was never there in the first place.

our friendship was a illusion crafted in both of our eyes.

Istg i'm happy yall LMFAO