Where do I begin?

Where do I begin? This last month has been a whirlwind. I’m so fucking happy about it. 

I’m in love. So unequivocally wrapped up in all that he is. He’s incredible. A true partner. I honestly believe that I have found my twin flame, which is CRAZY! He’s so much like me that it’s sickening. Down to the cookies we like. It sounds stupid but we agree on so much of the same stuff. Life could be easy, extremely easy with him. 

I’ll admit it’s hard to pour my heart out here when I’ve been doing it all month to him in person and over message. The single regret that I have is that I can’t go back and read anything he’s sent me again. I haven’t been keeping track and I really do need to start saving the really romantic things. 

He’s witty, playful, a bit of a rebel and a troublemaker. I adore his sense of humor. He will push every button to determine right where the line is. It’s a talent. A true skill. One that I don’t have too much of myself, so I guess in that way we are different. I could learn so much from him while still living simply, being comfortable, and providing him what he loves in life. He makes me so happy. 

He gives me everything he can. He thinks about my well being. While Paul was always hands off, 50/50, gave me the bare minimum and would constantly bitch about it, this one is different. I’ve been buried to the point of being traumatized by the workload of my life because Paul is for a lack of a better term, useless. Paul is a taker. He takes and takes and gives nothing back. This new individual is a giver, which is a gift and a blessing I do not take lightly. Being a giver myself, I know what there is a certain balance that must be respected. I try not to have him do too much for me, but unlike Paul, he is a man, which means he does a lot of things for me that he would have probably just done anyways. He fixed my car keys, cleaned up my computer, and has just done little things to improve my life. I don’t even have to ask him, he just does it. It’s the sexiest thing. He’s always working on something and I LOVE IT! He speaks my love language just perfectly. 

I know my personal life is a mess right now, but I’m so optimistic. He’s going to make the greatest father figure for PJ. He’s going to be an incredible Dad someday. It hurts to think that he may not see it in himself. I am hoping to help with that though.