I'm Clueles

Does anyone ACTUALLY have a clothing style?? i feel so conflicted because i love so many styles at once, like trashy, Bella from Twilight, gothic, grungey, scene, like weird creepy soft goth?? dunno if that makes sense but that style. and like basically every alternative style i love. It could be because i listen to literally every genre of alt music there is, so all those sub cultures are being drilled into my brain, but like i have no idea which one i actually want to dress like so it's become a joke with my friends of like, which style is Raven going to come to school as next? 

i mainly dress like grungy and skater-y, and some days like really toned down goth, but i feel like sometimes i trick myself into thinking i dress exactly how i want, if that makes sense, i have like clothing dysmorphia or something because especially when i was younger, i always thought i was portrayed as this cool little emo chick, and i was, but not cool or hot like i thought, and it's because i just didnt give what i wanted to have gave, like i didn't even dress how i thought i looked in my head.

 i always forget people can't just see what i want my "aesthetic" to be and just see me in that way ;-; but i mean like i KNOW i dress skatery and grungy now, because i'm not AS dumb and blind as i used to be, but i think i come off as this cool little alt baddie when in reality i think i just come off as a little dummy who happens to dress dark (this is 100% because i am in fact an idiot and that makes people see me as a brighter energy if that makes sense, because i act positively, people portray me as a bright person) but i don't actually care, because i think i would rather be a positive person and seen as not as alt, than a negative person, and seen as this gothic little baddie, and i mean i think i really just dress as a character from like mid90s and i act as one so obviously people will see me as one, rather than who i am in my head (literally Serena from Downtown) and yes, i do dress in this way sometimes, but i think my personality and the MAIN clothes i wear overrule that.