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Big Sigh

I've been annoyed and stressed lately (AND I STILL HAVEN'T GOTTEN MY PERIOD SINCE I WENT TO MY BFS), I have tests and things to do and I just dont feel like doing anything and i cant focus at all.

Today my class went on a school trip, a reunion with every single highschool in my island.

It was all chill until I turn my back and find an ex-friend standing right in front of me. We had a pretty bad falling out and we havent spoken to each other for a year.

He said hi and started to apologize for everything and I just shook my head and said it as ok, it was all extremely uncomfortable. We talked a little bit, he asked me how i was and stuff, did some catching up for a little bit. Then it was silence and he suddenly said he really wanted to hug me while looking as if he was about to cry.

I normally hate hugging, specially when they're strangers, and he as basically one to me now.

Even so, I hugged him and he still asked if it was ok or if I was sure i wanted to hug him and I just did, I hugged tightly even though I didn't mean it, I didn't miss it and I wasn't particularly happy to see him.

Today I should've been finishing some classwork, but I didn't, I spent all day chatting with him, I dont want to, conversations are bland and boring, I'm not happy speaking to him again.

But i can't bring myself to end the conversation, I'm even replying to him while writing this.

I hope my mood just means my period is gonna be coming soon, because i can't stand anything and anyone rn

Today I listened to Sabina like I used to on my way to school and I'm gonna find a way to download a couple of his albums on my phone thats filled with so much shit it cant function properly sometimes