Rejecting a Digital Lobotomy/Virtual Burn Out

I've spent the last 2 months (Although I haven't been on here for awhile) absolutely just zombified by my phone, especially Meta (FB & Insta). I found a sort of numbness increasing everyday, just tired of the world, tired of even the digital world. I started feeling myself burning out; Emotionally, physically and mentally. For some reason, I decided during a very rough patch in my life, to revisit Neocities, and to specifically visit alternatives to help myself learn to love my place in the world again. 

I realized it isn't necessarily my phone that's at fault, but the addictive formatting of it. I open my phone to do something of importance (a phone call, a text, etc) and immediately get sucked into sliding to see the news, opening a social app, scrolling for hours and hours, till it turns to days and weeks and life passes me by. It is very addictive, and I've seen how addictive anger is especially, and pride. Every time I'd open anything, even YouTube now, the amount of negativity is hard to ignore but easy to take into one's state of being. 

I cannot allow myself to constantly consume anymore. It's very hard to feel human, to feel alive, when you are forced into constant chaos you cannot control. Do not think of me as anti internet though, I believe in the power of the connection to each other in the web. However, most of social apps do not believe in connection, in my opinion.

So from now on I am switching my life from living a digital world, to living a life that engages in a digital world. 

I will be rejoining Spacehey, and a few other platforms removed from corporate interest. To rediscover community, both IRL and online. 

Hoping the best for the future. Take care everyone.

~Moss