I had a mental break down yesterday :(

Yesterday was not a good day for me! :( 

I was just really tired and sad for no reason. (And I have moments like this often) And I was feeling really unsure of the relationship I was in bcuz my partner would only be all happy and lovey In front of people and then just wouldn't talk to me. I HAD to text first, I HAD to give my classwork answers, I HAD to do this I HAD to do that. I was getting tired of it.

So I texted them and asked if they really cared abt me, if they really loved me because it had been pretty great in the beginning. 

And their response was that they were sorry they were busy with doing tests(its been three weeks), and doing choir stuff and that I should dump them. 

I wanted to know if they loved me, and they said I shouldn't rely on them so heavy...

So I had started to cry and all the stuff that I had bottled up for months came rushing in like a flood since I wasn't feeling so happy. 

I went to the bathroom and texted my mom cuz I was scared ( I was having thoughts of unaliving) 

and I went to the nurse and she let me calm down in the back room of the office in there. MY nana picked me up and I went to my therapist and I talked through it and I'm better now!

Im just glad I had the guts to reach out for help.