Im very exhausted with everyone and tired of the sht.

Im sick of my fat ass stepdad in general. like he think bulking and cutting applies to u like it doesn't, that's for ppl who started their journey off skinny ur job is literally to weight train n UR STILL FUCKING FAT LIKE TAKE THAT AS A DAMN SIGN OMG..LIKE STOP!EATING!ALL!THAT!DAMN!FOOD LIKE UR FOOD SHOULD NOT B PILING ON TOP OF UR PLATE!!!!!!! UR LITERALLY THE REASON WHY I EAT LESS BC U MAKE ME LOSE MY APPETITE WHENEVER I EAT NEXT TO U!!!

And my mom has the audacity to say 'oh just let him live,' but when i talk loud it's a problem like at least im not smearing pasta all over my shirt like a fcking 5 year old it's js too damn much and THAT'S supposed to be my role model? like at least my REAL DAD can eat right, and knows how to carry himself not out here looking like a damn bum every day. 

And my mom can be so ungrateful sometimes. I forgot my piano music and its happened a few times, so my piano teacher told me 2 go home (not mad abt that) so once i get home my mom is pretty ok so im like whatev but she's kinda hyper, her bday was tommorow at that time (its today)

So right after she yelled at me for the whole piano thing, i thought 'ill try to make it up and get her the gift she wanted' so i went to cvs and got her a photo frame and a card (her wannabe hipster ass said 'I WANT A PICTURE OF MY KIDS FOR MY BDAY!!' but said we have to wear suits like-) And came back. 

she didn't even say ty and just told me to go put pictures in frames for her. While doing that i tried to ask her questions but she was like  'WHY ARE YOU BEING ANNOYING' like damn u js shoved a whole job at me and is conused that im asking questions.so then i just stopped caring, i finished framing all the pics and then went on my computer.

then at the end of the day she got mad at me for not pickking up the trash. i explained that i wasn't gonna do that because you were brushing me off and acting like it wasnt important while talking abt some random millionaire.then she acts like im the one with an issue and runs away and starts yapping 2 my age regressor stepdad.

i felt bad, like shes not even happy or grateful i spent my own money getting her a gift, and yells at me like 3 hours after?i should go n return that stuff n get the juicy perfume i wanted. i was frustrated,went to sleep,woke up, went to school, was in english worked on essay, then im in art and being ignored.

Im so tired of being under valued ignored and treted rude it's so so tired ,I do way mroe than ppl realize js for them to treat me like shit and do other things as a result. People not liking me when i did nothing to them either, js want to feel power, because im constantly used as a 'at least im better than them' 'at leats i look cuter than them' and i try SO HARD!! I TRY TRY TRY!!! But it never works with these people.Im tired of being trampled over and ignored as well.Like all these people with their imaginary bullshit has got to go, like you haven't gone through shit u cant choose an pick what's trauma and what's not. like i literally try so hard to keep everyone in the house happy n stable,and put their needs before mine. And IM the problem? Nah, yall r the problem.