i am the ocean

the ocean is the home i retreat to. the waves are the only ones capable of telling how cold i am inside, swam through but depths that we‘ll never be able to understand. an entire world that is just her own. but unlike her i am a coward, i only observe them from afar. i am farther away than anyone could understand. i know that one day i will become her, finally on display for everyone to see me. i talk to her, but i wonder if she can see me. i can’t scream from afar, for others will see me.