What i wish i could have

I guess its my fault my marriage is falling apart. I didn't know i was marrying a bisexual man and needed to be ok with doing sexual things to him I wouldn't even do myself. I thought this man loved me but i didn't tell him what I meant by love. I want a man who truly loves me who picks up after himself to make my everyday load easier a man who can do his own laundry who doesn't prioritize sexual appetites and video games over bonding with me and our children a man who actually wants to be active in a marriage with their family who is proud of having a clean house someone who would never want another person or to share me just real true love from a man who is selfish who wants me all to himself mind body soul who would get physically sick from the thought of sleeping with anyone outside of our marriage i want an old fashion love that i am afraid does not exist