i've been feeling like shit recently.

ever since my cat's passing, i've been feeling like crap. she was the only thing i had going for me. i have friends finally but they sometimes exclude me from stuff, which is alright. i never had friends before so i'm pretty sure this is normal. school is shit. being in high school sucks. my grades arent all that and i don't know if i could even keep trying. i should, since how am i supposed to work for cartoon network studios, y'know? i've heard about overwork in the animation business and the struggle to buy food because the economy and the housing rates have gone down to shit. i think about my future since it's terrible. all that aside, i have a crush and i've been wanting to ask her out but seeing my body (chubby) she'll say no. i heard that in everybody hates chris a crush is another term for, "she don't like you, stupid!" which made me chuckle a little bit. the only thing that keeps me going now are my friends, television, and videogames. therapy is too expensive, the counselor sucks, and to top it all off, nobody wants to play Mario Kart with me. also, im not depressed. i don't think i am, though.

too long, didn't read: sad, frustrated about life, and suicidal.