i am thinking: school dayy

right now i am thinking very hard... i am thinking about this class im in because i honestly dont even understand a thing even tho its probably easy. im not dumb or anything i just dont care about stocks... econmomy has no intrest to me and i reall dont caree! i dont want to process it. i dont have room in my mind to process your capitalism. haha.. i do have space to process all my goofball thougths. lately ive been feeling violent. i will give you run down of my day. i wake up.. super tired ive been watching euphoria super good! i wanna watch it so much but it may not be the show to watch in public. i stayed up til 1am watching it. so i wake up at 5am. i dont like having 4 hours of sleep. i take while to wake up that way. and then when i wake up, i watch more euphoria. so good. im on episode 5. i didnt do much all that intresting. i dont know why but i did get really emotional about my cat. she is like the best thing on this earth. shes so cute and i actually love herr!! she is like my baby to me. like i would kill someone for that cat. i got enotional thinling about how i am on the same earth as these amazing beings like. i mustve been a saint in my last life to have the ability to spend my life with a pet cat. if i ever developed a cat allergy i would let it kill me lowkey. anyway.. i spent awhile picking clothes because i knew if i was gonna be tired, i would want to be comfy. if im in uncomfy clothes and upset, i might go coo coo nuts and maul the nearest person in my proximity. lol... and then in the mornings i like to say good morning to my mom because i love her so much but she was not awake... :( she is my best friend. she thinks its weird. i hang out with her all the time and i think maybe she is a bit annoyed at that. but it is ok, because i am her daughter and she cannot remove me. LOL.. and then i got on the bus. i always sit in the4th seat but ever since my trip to nashville, people have been sititng in my seat. whatever. so i sit in the seat in the very front and anytime the door opens a gust of wind and the smell of wet dog hits me. it makes me very cold. btw speaking of.. why does no one wear deoderant on my bus.. i swear to god. my bus smells so horrendous its insane. and i was listenign to musicc this morning but for some reason i could not keep the attention span to jsut listen to one song so i just listened to the first like 20 seconds of a song before i skipped. its the worse cus like why do i do that??? i lvoe music. sometimes i can keep my attention span, not often. i have found that listening to lana del rey calms my mind the most. i can listen to her without wanting to change the song the minute i play it. and on the bus my friend was not on there. im not allowed to sit with her because she has an assigned seat cus she was being bad, but i like to walk from the bus to the school with her. in the mornigns i hang out with a ton of my friends. sometimes half the time i dont know most of the people but i think i get a good idea of everyone. im not all that close with many people. like i am friends with them all, but not alot of people have the time to text me or anything. i only talk mostly to my friends abby, mace and bekah. and vic maybe a few times a week. theyre the realest people in my life. the others only message me so little, if not.. like at all. but i dont mind that too much, im okay being alone. i think i can figure it out pretty well. anyway after i do my pre-class hang out with everyone, i go to my first period, band. i love band but sometimes i just dont want to do anything. today is my band teachers birthday. my birthday is next month. i ajm excited for that. i think my mom might buy me the lana del rey aw necklace with the pearls. i would love that! if not, id still love anything. so in band, its super hot in there. ithink they keep it cozy so the instruments dont get cold. if woodwinds get cold, they get ruined. i play the saxophone, which is a woodwind, which would get ruined. so i dont mind the heat too much but i always have to take my jacket off in band. today i am wearing a tank top that goes down pretty low. its just comfy. but i dont like it much when people look at me that way. maybe thats why guys dont like me (?) but anyway. my favorite song we are playing in band is called ancient flower. its really prretty but actually kinda hard to play. you would think its easy but it isnt. it takes lots of breath and control. its a slow song. it kinda sounds like.. japanese? idk. when we play music in band class i picture a scenario that matches the song. i think thats what the composers go for. theyre pretty good at their jobs. i like band. then after band i go to the bathroom to wash my hands (the spit from my instrument gets on my hands) and then i get food with my friend bekah. she always talks to this one guy before we get food. probably the reason im late to 2nd period all the time. i dont mind it tho. i dont like to be in class.. ok i jsut switched classes to english class in real time and we have a test tommorow, im worried about but i will talk abput that when i get to the end, because this is the last period of the day. anyway i got my breakfast and it was good. the school cafe got rid of the energy drinks they had. it was like healthy energy drinks (?) it has caffeine and sugar and all.. it honestly tasted good but it would always hit my teeth weird. and then after that i went to y 2nd period.. late. lol. my 2nd period isnt all that intresting. its my targeted standerds class. its a class for students with IEPs. if you dont know what an iep is its like a a little procedure for kids with disabilities. im not like super autisitic or anything. mines for ¨emotional disturbance¨ whateevr that means? also ignore how i dont have quotation marks, this chromebook is so beat up lololll. its in spanish and i do not speak spanish. in my targeted standerds class, its like a study hall. i just caught up on math work. the teacher i normally have for targteed standerds wasnt here today so my math teacher was the subsitiute... ugh. so i had to do math work. lol jk i wouldve been doing it anyway. my 2 weeks out for nashville really got me behind in school work. uughhhhh. i dont like doing work. i have so much work missing. its the worse! anyway after that class i have math class. i do honestly like math.. i know that sounds crazy but my mom always says that its logical and it only has one right answer. i like that. in like history class they ask a question that could theoretically have a million answers, but they only expect one. how do you even compete with that. i know i complain about school alot but i am really lucky to have school easy for me. im lucky to be at school in general. but sometimes i take that for advantage, and i think alot of people do. today math wasnt anything different, still fun. me and my friends abby and mace sit together in that class. we are the only ones that talk and we are all strange creatures id say. i think alot of people probably listen to our convosations, and im okay with that. they do make my day honestly. without my friends i wouldnt wanna be at school ever. anyway, after that i have lunch.. i have lunch soo early. it ends at like 10:53 am? what in the world?? anyway the lunch was beef nachos. i dont like to eat it because one time it made me projectile vomit everywhere. thats what i think about everytime i look at them. not a very nice feeling. so anytime thats the meal for lunch i just get the chips.. no cheese, no salsa, and no beef..! no beef! i believe that may have been the culprit for the puking. i love steak, not a big beef fan. Ive never had a burger. the idea of a burger disgusts me.. the texture looks horrid.... the smell is nausating... i guess it would also depend on where you get it. but anyway besides food, lunch was good. at the lunch table there is autumn, ethan, me and bekah. i like them all. theyre all very intresting characters. then after lunch i have study hall. autumn is like partially deaf so she has hearing aids. she had this microphone that can speak into her hearing aids for teachers. so during study hall, i was messing around with that. we just whispered silly things into the microphone. ive never heard of such a cool device. i love when people use technology for such good. like so smart. after study hall i had biology. biology is the only class i was failing, that now went up to a D. thank god. i dont honestly do the work sometimes... its too much! me and my friend vic play genshin impact. well, to rephrase, she plays and i see what shes up to. today she was working on her house?? i didnt even know that game had like a customizable house. its pretty cool. the game intruges me but i dont have the paiteicnce or storage for that. my phone has like thousands and thousands of photos on it. i like to take pictures. but anyway, i only had a little worksheet that i was supposed to do but i did not. i was confused and did not want to do it. i am not a fan of schoolwork. i think im gonna ask my mom for help later today. after biology, i have history. history is fine. my teachers a little bit weird. today we learned about like pol sot or whatever  his name is. some political dude who killed a ton of people. i dont even get why people do stuff like that. its just devestating. but, in this class i was drawing. i love to draw. i think of myself as a good artist, even if i draw the same thing most of the time. actually, i probably shouldnt frown on my art. i am a good artists. i think of myself as pretty creative. ive been really into drawing like characters that all look like marie antoinette.. omg ive never met a girl who has never had a personal relationship about marie antoinette or joan of arc. if you say you have not, i do not believe you. after my history class i then have my financial literacy class. its where you learn about banking or whatever. this is the class i had started writing this blog..  i think ive written alot since then. but when i walked in the class i went up to my teacher and asked if i could catch up on any work. i havent been in that class since thursday, it is wednesday today, LOL.. she told me what i had missed and then she asked why i was in the library instead of her class. i told her i needed to catch up on work, i really did. i was working on my stupid bio work. why is there soo much?! whatever. i dont care. so i caught up on almost everything in that class, and then i got tired and then i went on pintrest, lol. and then i started writing on this blog. then i went to my english class, which is what im in now, this class ends in about 15 minutes. we didnt really do anything today. the teacher just gave us the rubric for the state testing for tommorow and then just told us how we can prepare. i think ill do fine. but lowkey something i love about this class is they give us a break to just chill. he understands that will be stressed tommorow for the test so he doesnt give us a ton of work. so after my state  testing i have classes still after, and tommorow we are gonna watch sandlot isntead of work. i hope thats what most my teachers do. i like most my teachers even if im a bit bother by then sometimes. anyway since the school day is ending, i should end this blog soon too.. i would continue it at home but i would be asleep,, sleeping whe i get home is the plan!.. ok byeeee