4-10-24

i think i am lost when it comes to friends. over time as i have found out what i would like out of friendships and who i do as well, i’ve progressively become more selective when it comes to choosing friends. i’m not against making new friends and i don’t hold myself back around new people, but i feel i know who i connect with pretty easily now. but with knowing what i want, i have lost a good amount of friends as well. i feel pretty comfortable alone, and im not unsatisfied, but at the same time, my friends have starter to explore new friendships and groups, more eventful ones. it does give me a sense of fomo at times. but i always come back to moments when i realized their friends aren’t people i want to be close with. i’m not mean or pretentious when it comes to them, and whenever im invited i am social and make the most out of it. i am trying to take this time to get better at going this alone, especially thinks i have to travel for. which has been really really nice. need costco food. i love you hatsune miku.