maybe i don't love myself as much as i thought i did

to let myself be used

in so many ways

mentally

emotionally

physically...

it's unlike me at all

i knew how it was going to end

but i ignored it all

all for the plot

for the fun of it

i'm disgusted with myself

my priorities all jumbled

who am i?

who is this?

i look in the mirror and i don't recognize myself

i don't know who i am anymore

then again i never did

i'm always learning new things about myself

new things about her

god, she's so confusing

but so interesting

i'm curious about her

i can't stop thinking about her

my whole world revolves around her

i just wish she could learn to love herself

like the rest of the world does