pure gluttony

Been living in a state of pure gluttony recently. Really on my "if i dont want to do it i wont" shit. Like my days consist of pretending to do work, eating ramen, smoking, masturbating, watching twin peaks and like the occasional walk to the park. School work is beginning to pile up though so i fear i may need to get out of my funk. I have a short childrens story to write and illustrate, a poem to reconstruct, and a "seminar" that I'm supposed to create on the manosphere which is supposed to be 15-20 minutes long to present. It's rough too because it's not anyone else's fault but my own, i actually have some of my favorite teachers ever this semester. They're all very considerate and sweet. Kind of adds to the sting of not having my stuff done. I just need to start, every time I try though I get the intense urge to do literally ANYTHING else. It's almost cool how I become so productive in every other aspect of my life when I have piled up work. Chores, getting back to people, cooking, I do it all. As long as its not my work of course. Makes me a bit quezzy thinking about how these habits will most likely follow me into university, where every assignment I don't bother with will be money flushed down the toilet. On a different note, this weekend I attended my friend Sanda's 18th birthday party. It was chill but felt a bit embarrased because me and Victor got pretty high. I assumed that since Sanda lovess smoking weed it wouldn't be weird but I dont know if we got off reactions and a few just outwardly rude comments. Can't remember too many specifically but for sure didnt make me feel totally welcome. Anywho, im gonna go watch more twin peaks, toots