getting better

Hi peopleee (again) UM SO TW: talk about relapse and eating issues and sad shit like tht (if u dont wanna read pls click out!!)

Welcome back to my blog where i whine and bitch about things i cant anywhere else!!:) enjoy yhe ride (if ur from my school, no ur not) 

so i have been going through a bit of a rough patch recently and upsettingly enough (i regret it so hard) almost a year clean i relapsed. this relapse was pretty tough and i wasnt expecting it. as soon as i did it i felt super nauseous and sick to my stomach. it was NOT fun.

so my partner did find out and this week them and i are going to a place where i can talk to people about my issues, but not bring up that stuff.

ive been doing acceptionally well with my eating. though there still is that guilt, i can feel it leaving. and though there is still TW yhat calorie counter in my head, i am working to make it stop. ive been eating 3 meals a day, and a few snacks too! i find eating breakfast suprisingly puts me in such a good mood, i shouldve kept doing that everyday maybe id be less depressed XD

I guess i am doing acceptional with school. the workload isnt crazy or anything because i am not in math this semester so all is well with school, im just behind on work because i took a few days off school last week but its okay because im determined to get my shit straight.

ALSO I GOT A JOB!! i still need to finish my paperwork and get my banking info BUT I GOT THE JOB!! also the uniform is red and black and i think red is one of my colours also black too so imbhappy about that!! its the small things in life that make it better:))

anyways this weekend was NOT crazy fun? but i somewhat enjoyed it a lot. i spent most of it with my partner/bf and if was actually supeisingly more fun then i expected even though we mostly just cuddled and babysat my cousins and our plans to go thrifting and see a movie were cancelled :,( sadly.. (NEXT WEEK RESCEDULED!!!) i enjoyed it very much!!

today i wore no makeup ay all to school and im actually not feeling as bad as i expected. :-) anways i have to go to my next class, thanks for listening! make sure you’re eating enough and drinking enough water, as always stay cool and take care of urself!!<333 c u l8tr!!

-SKULLZ