yeah back sorry

oh my god its been eventful

so yes, i tried to leave and that failed because it turns out that i wasnt trying to leave and start a new life or whatever, ended up travelling to scotland and the plan was to go to shetland and get rid of myself uuuuhhhhhhhhh yeah i couldnt do it in the end obviously because i got found in glasgow and my roommate had to go get me and bring me back in his friends car, god knows how he drove up from cornwall to scotland without a license, when i got back there was lots of storms and the power kept going out, thankfully got to catch some storms down porthleven so ive been happy since then, nothing like almost being dragged into the sea by cold sewage water

i blew a LOT of money on train travel, went to plymouth and had a walk around, got myself an oasis shirt but rule 1 of this account is to never attach photos which is a shame, then went bristol, then went reading then, london but i left as soon as i could and changed a few times until i was in glasgow

most of the station changes were not needed

in bristol i fell asleep in a random library which was VERY embarrasing 

we dont talk about reading. or maybe we do. god what a terrible place

on the train i would not stop watching old roblox ads, my fav will always be the 2011 tv ad

its free! or is it???

im glad i didnnt have to get a train back otherwise it would have been rail replacement buses, what a pain

see, the original plan was to end it at reading, never liked reading but then stuff happened there and just felt the urge to flee and then i changed the plans to what i couldnt get to go through with, maybe its good i got attacked? 

i am getting better and healthier, when im in the shop i dont let myself buy gum anymore, only food

oh i feel like a beast domesticated down until im forced to act like a goldfish

you cant squeeze an ugly beast into a glass box

and i will never flee this glass box again

stay in the shitty town for the rest of my life like every other person here, barely even people

your identity gets stripped away the second you realise youll never leave

and im still set to be evicted, thats the problem!

i wake up every morning and love to read the newspaper, i dont pump propaganda in my brain, they charge for the NEWSpaper, i get the free advertiser one, oh boy i cant wait to look at the houses for sale that cost more than ill ever earn in my life!

so i find myself here, making big changes and having big events, back with the same points, nothing changed and i travelled to another country for this. 

yes i consider scotland a country get used to it

i did accidentally set fire to my converse in plymouth, just wanted a campfire and my drunk mind decides my shoes would be good fuel to the fire, i wouldnt be lying if i said i was going everywhere in my socks until london

and im still back here pretending i dont have crush on my own roommate

but gladly i can consider myself clean from the one thing im trying to stay clean of

still a lot of problems to sort

i dont spite my ex anymore hes just a confused dickhead like i was

he still owes me money though

my dream is to disassemble a lightbulb

all my muscles ache and im back here at the same conclusions begging people i havent talked to in years to let me live with them when the duration is over and my roommate is doing my head in, hes doing nothing wrong, its me

all the things im typing in this short form i have probably said before differently

you throw me in a volcano and ill still be expecting the cold, made a similar point before

but if i admit ill never change then ill go back where i started

because every action causes a little bit of progress

oh sticky pub tables how i love you with all my heart

the weather makes me want to pull out my hair but the storms are worth it

fixed the holes in my gloves finally

flat is vandalised to shit because the landlord is evil scum thats like "Ohh you have to leave in this amount of time. by the way. because i cant be arsed evicting you. if you donnt leave i will evict you. increasing your rent by 200 BTW." so we arent paying the rent either of course

after each of these posts are published i do it all again iykyk

see, with the anonymity on the internet, how can you be sure im real?

oh to roll in a pile of leaves at penrose

microsoft co pilot ai is going to kill me

god i cant escape the word ai

night. no song of the blob