vent chat (in my depressed era rn/j)

basically, one of my really good friends that I really liked (as a friend) blocked me. Context-we were friends for about a year until we had feelings for each other, but we ended them. Starting school again we liked each other again and dated. But it was awkward to date your best friends so we ended it after like two weeks. Then we just stopped talking. However, we started talking again. He's very racist and pretty rude but I think he could be a good friend when he wants to be. So i started to yap, and he was saying "text me again and ill block you" and i thought it was a joke (like the other 5 times since it wasn't the first time he has blocked me) and I started to yap about something I actually wanted to talk about and he blocked me. And we haven't talked since. But i did say "i like your outfit today". That's it. Lol