its been nearly two months since i was online

i know no one really cares or reads this but whatever.

first school is stressful. a lot of work, even during the holidays. the most notable thing about me is my complete and utter lack of motivation. so yeah, not easy.

second i'm working on a brick hill clone of some sort called Regite. i don't own it, i'm just the lead web dev. its going ok, ig, but it really shows how used i am to static hosting like neocities instead of using server side scripting and all that.

third i am much less active on the internet now, most likely due to personal issues. ngl the place im most active nowadays is probably my own website, squish.cafe, but even then i sometimes post less than two posts a week on my blog.

fourth i keep getting made to do things i really hate. like yesterday for example, even after explaining to my dad how i hate the way i look and how its the reason i want to keep my face hidden behind my hair, he still made me cut it. a two on the sides and most of it off the top. he also wont let me get earrings cause "they are for girls" or have long hair.

finally ive found myself wishing for the day to end as soon as possible just so i can sit on my laptop and listen to music or something for a few hours untli need to charge it again. as a matter of a fact im writing this at 00:48, so yeah.

yeah life rn is hard. im trying to not vent too much cause its kinda pathetic and ppl will make fun of me, or at least the ppl ik irl.

anyway if you've read this far ty.