current spine crumpling toe curling obsession

guys i have. a ballet obsession. 

before anonyone says anything I DONT WNAT TO HEAR IT

dude i did it a little when i was REALLY young. like kinder or whatever but im juts SOOOOO<3

i also went down the rabbit hole of "whoa what if i had just grown up doijng ballet. would they have let me transsition? would i be a good ballet dancer njs ahblahblah" and its driving me CRAZY

i wanr to do performance art basically,,,,.. but i kno im not vocally talented so im hyperfixating this instead ToT

ive been doing stretches n excercises every day and i think im going insane. also, STRETCHING IS ACTUALLY HELPING MY MNETLA HEALTH A LITTLE????" i hate myself. ITS WEIRD . i feel so stupid being ohhmygod! i start my day stretching x3 it feels like im abt to go grab an iced coffee and carry around a yoga mat. 


im normal. i just want to leap around on a stage. thats normal. hell.p me
(also ive been listening to orchestra/opera n that kind of stuff to so AGGHH) oh yeah and im having a thing with phantom of the opera.l.,

my mom cut open a watermelon nevermind guys im not crazy anymore my only hobby is eating watermelon !!!! bai ;p