weight and body issues

i hate how i can feel my fat hanging off my bones, idk as of recently i've been restricting my intake more consistently (fasting for 3 days to about 12 days instead of 3 days to a week) and working out more but i don't feel my body changing in the slightest. i weigh myself at the same time everyday and the weight fluctuates like crazy, idk if its the floor that's making my weigh-ins so bad or if i'm actually getting fat. i cant deal with seeing my body jiggle like water i cant have that, it makes me sick. i love food i usually obsess over it, but i cant have it, i cant eat it. if calories didn't exist i would eat food 24/7 and probably make a living off selling cookies and cupcakes but i can't bcs ik i have 0 self control. my face changes shape every time i eat and it drives me nuts. i cant put on clothes that i like bcs all i see is my fat cells pouring out from underneath it.