Minecraft YouTuber gets a job

Hey all!

Is SpaceHey slow for anyone else? I tried updating my profile to a more Frutiger Aero vibe and was getting dial-up flashbacks. There's a new theme on my page, in case you were wondering.

I made a new post on my channel, since I couldn't really muster the energy to record it in person. If you'd like to worship me in my comments section, the original post can be found by clicking here. If you can't be bothered, the post is here:

TL;DR: New job! But no energy. Videos will be uploaded irregularly until I can figure something out. Big stuff currently being worked on. 

I've tried multiple times to record this message but each time I struggle to articulate my words, so I'm writing in the hopes that I can finally get it out in some way. 

When I started making videos this year, I told myself that I wanted to upload one video a week this year; given that I had no homework to do anymore, my evenings were completely open. Unfortunately, burnout has been pretty bad as of late, not to mention the physical exhaustion of working my new job. I love my job, it's incredible work with great people. It's just a lot of physical and mental work that often leaves me sore in the morning, so, unfortunately, I haven't been up to working on many videos as of late.

Even if this whole YouTube thing takes off this year, and I see TommyInnit levels of growth, I'm not giving up this job. I've seen many creators abandon their mainstream jobs in favour of content creation, which is a far more volatile and mentally exhausting career that can be stripped of someone just as quickly as it is given to them. To be fair; a lot of the time, it's stripped from them because they've committed a crime.

This leaves me in the difficult position of having the passion for content, the enthusiasm for work, but not the energy to persue both. For this reason, it pains me to say that I will likely have to abandon the weekly uploads I tried to uphold until now, in favour of the "upload whenever it benefits me" model I had in 2022/2023. I hate this model. I hate seeing my channel go a month without a single upload, knowing full well that I want to provide content but lack the physical willpower to record. But I feel that my videos aren't as important as the work I do, or the team that I work alongside. 

By no means, however, am I abandoning this channel. Far from it! I want to make a couple video essays this year, on some more serious issues, but I also have a backlog of about 50 video ideas across 2 channels that I want to persue. By no means am I currently lacking any content ideas, more so that I simply don't have the time or energy to persue both as passionately as each other.

So, while it will irritate me to see the channel gather dust, I know deep down that it's an important step for me to take in my life. I look forward to future content, although it may be out less frequently as I might hope. Thanks for your continued support. 

I'm proud of this identity.