made while listening to what a catch Donnie 4/7/24

there is actually a lot I can talk about so I figure I might as well while I have it on my mind.
I'm feeling a little sick so it's prob not the best to upload right now but it is the best free time I've got 

good stuff that's happened, I spent today with my best friends Angel and Kat, they are such cool dudes, and I'm so happy I have them around they are literally some of my best friends. Pete is away right now so it is a bit slower on the server we have I also think my need for my ex has died I don't want him at all anymore. I also have fewer @ from him and his friends on Twitter calling me every name in the book. I'm thinking of maybe starting a band I'm not sure anymore I mean I've wanted to for a while now but never got around to it well I did for a little, a bit back but it fell apart pretty quick. I've made a bunch of new friends from video games and shit, I've gotten back into fall out boy after SO long of not listening to them I went from like 400 plays to almost 1000 in 2 days and I'm genuinely so happy I'm back into it after seeing them live awhile back. Last night's show was insane 6 8 balls were crazy it was funny being so excited for something after forever of feeling so empty it was surreal.

angel has been such a huge fucking support pillar to me. He is basically my favorite person ever at this point he's been keeping me afloat for so long, and I am literally so happy he's my wife honestly- I was thinking of writing some songs cause I never got to do that when I was in my old band cause I was never given creative freedom in that band. I'd say it was a terrible environment, but we were just stupid kids thinking we would make it in any form of the music scene. We wouldn't have, but I guess it still could have been okay to try. But I realized we gave up not long after forming the band so maybe it was a lost cause.

I don't like to think I have a lot of problems with how things went down with that band but it kind of felt terrible being in that band due to the fact I was almost fully cut off from giving any sort of constructive criticism to any of the creative processes. But It's whatever I'm not even in the band anymore I'm not sure why I am even talking about it anymore.

I'm a little sad I won't get to see Fall Out Boy again for a little, the last show was pretty cool though! I love Pete Wentz's little magic trick I think I will see them again on the next tour. Hopefully, if I get enough money to go seeing them live altered my brain chemistry even more than seeing My Chem live did.

so anyway enough rambling, I've been having some troubles in school my grades have been going down gradually and I think I'm going to fail. At this rate it's kind of scary it's the junior year I think it's my depression I'm trying to power through it but it's been hard I think my bipolar is also a part of that too it's been extremely hard to keep that in check to even with meds I guess it's just going to be like that forever cause I can't like power trough this it can only be managed.

Anyway, as much as I'd love to keep going I have to clean my room and take out the trash so I'll talk to all of you later. And I'll hopefully not get killed in a match fight against myself most likely