You gutted me - all because of wrong presumptions.

As of Thursday I am single. Five year relationship... gone. It was good. It was happy. until 3 months ago. then night and day. I was neglected and tormented emotionally all because of presumptions. Then I ended up hospitalized. I could only take so much before I felt forced to end the relationship. I could only endure the neglect for 2 months before I just could not take it anymore. I had to end it.

I am now realizing that it could have had to do with my struggle with my own identity. I recently came out as non-binary. I for years was not sure if I was grey ace, demisexual or what. Intermittently sex repulsed? I have no idea. Recently ace flux I guess. But I guess my now-ex made some presumptions that prompted them to be so cruel to me? I don't know. I guess I never will know.

I am still processing the break up. I am a fucking mess right now. I still don't understand what happened. All I know is I am a wreck right now.

I don't know. I am gutted.