Birthday and doubts

So today I went to a birthday, nothing special, I was just there, existing. I didn't really want to be there, but I didn't have much option.

Can't do a fit check bc my front camera is shit, litterally shakes for no reason, I need to get a new phone (no money tho TT)

This is the best I could do lol (I should lose weight)

The other camera isn't that bad so I can do a face reveal!!!! (You could see my face on my insta anywas but yeah)

(not my bathroom btw)

I don't like the fit that much actually, I just didn't want to go and that was what I had that was kind of warm.

On another note, lesbian me is considering dating a man, why you ask, well, let me tell you a story.

A few months ago my best friend told me he liked me, but me, a lesbian not that sure of being a lesbian, said no, bc lesbain, at the time he was chill ab it, like he didn't mind, but now he's like trying to distance himself from me because he did mind, and he's my best friend I don't wanna lose him, so I thought, I don't have a problem with dating men really, as long as I don't see a dick, and I can use our ages as an excuse for nor wanting to see dick, and that way he won't leave me, I think it's a nice plan if you ask me.

(Oh and I had a fight with him earlier bc he was distancing himself and I was the one always texting first and trying to talk to him and he was being dry and I didn't know why and all that bullshit, even tho I did know why, he told me it was bc he wanted something more and I didn't)

that's all I did today, I started my day at like 4pm so no wonder that's all I did.

I'm not expecting anyone to read this, but if it somehow reaches anyone, hi.