I HATE HAVING A CRUSH

Istg that mf. i could have moved on the first week i started to crush on him if there was no mixed signals. Then him telling me he likes an another girl to us starting to become friends and him dumping and venting abt his feelings to me, then it kinda got dry then again texting normally abt random stuff and then he started leaving me on delivered for hours even days and i stopped texting him first and its been a week since we texted and he doesnt even watch my stories on ig even tho he is active. And at school he only talks to me when im like next to him and not always, he is closer to other girls....he will never like me that's for sure