starting transition

i had a really hard time starting my transition. granted, i was a minor during a lot of that time, so that's no one else's fault. i knew i was some kind of gender-weird since late primary school. found out what the word for it was a little later. i went through phases of compromising for my dysphoria by being hyper-feminine, hoping no one would notice something was fundamentally wrong with me, and the fact that it made me want to kms every time i tried is why i'm so sure transitioning will be good for me. anyway, now that i've been a legal adult for almost a year, i found a doctor who wrote me a prescription which i paid for out of pocket (not bad with a coupon i found) and picked up at the pharmacy today. now, the brown paper bag is sitting on my desk and i've opened it and looked at it, but i have to start. it's a testosterone gel i need to apply to my upper arm every day. just trying to figure out what the best day would be. because, like, i'm setting the date for an important milestone and i don't want to pick a date that isn't important to me. anyway, i've come a long way and it's kind of fucking cringe to get sappy about it but i'm happy. i'm really, really happy.