Ouch

As I grow up and older. I feel the color draining from everything

As I grow older. I feel the pain go away leaving a emptiness the sadness was there for so long i feel morning now.

As I grow older. I watch my family grow away. Because I can't get out of bed to see them.

As I grow older. I wallow deeper into a pit of my worst sadness.

As I grow older. I find myself wanting to die drown myself in smoke and dead dreams. Drown myself in what ifs and lost memories.

As I grow older. 

Try to stomach some ice cream