Learning to live i guess

Honestly, these last two days have just been about me and trying to figure out what's going on in my own brain. Does anyone else wonder why we are the way we are? Sometimes it's 3am and I'm just in my room blasting some music through my ears looking at the ceiling wondering "How would life be if I didn't do that" or "Who would I be without this person in my life". Really keeps you wondering. Wondering turns into a rabbit hole of what you did or didn't do wrong. What is the purpose of this blog? No purpose. Just have a lot on my mind and it's nice to have a place to pour it all out. Right?