i hate men but i also love men

My ex is being such a pain in the ass lately!!! Like actually the worst. The breakup wasn't messy but I admit I could have done better but he does not need to continue to bring it up in front of our friends and become passive-aggressive whenever I mention my dating life (when he has a new girl too). I'm trying so hard to just be a supportive friend and I'm really happy he found a new person, but he is OBVIOUSLY not reciprocating. I told him that if he doesn't stop behaving immaturely I'll just stop being friends with I'm and that I have other, better friends and I do not need to have him in my life. He's literally so mean and he's always the one instigating it. For real fuck him.

On the other topic... the guy I've been seeing recently asked me to be his girlfriend! We were sitting in the park together and he just asked me! I said yes (obviously) and things are going great so far! He's really sweet and kind. Today he said that he loves my brutal honesty and that really felt nice because I've always felt like people don't like it and like I'm an annoyance to be around. I feel like he pays such fine attention to me and he always notices the little things I do. Like when we're cuddling I trace little hearts on his skin with my finger and he always notices. He also is not super sexual/interested in sex/sex-obsessed, which is nice because most men I know are rats. I actually love him so much I think about him all the time and everything about him is perfect even his imperfections are perfect. He has a bit of a lisp and he's supposed to have surgery soon and after it will be gone but honestly I think I'll miss it a little bit, it's kind of cute. He doesn't like to dance but when we're sitting listening to music together in my room sometimes he tries to dance with me (like swaying) and I tried teaching him salsa dancing. I love him so much I'm going to become psychotic.

anyways my eighteenth birthday is in two days so I'm going to go mourn the death of my childhood :)