Narcissism

have yall ever dated a narcissist?

Narcissism is an adult state of emotionally
immaturity that comes from not fully going through each stage of childhood
development. The behaviors are ego-centric. Narcissists tend to inflict
trauma on those around them and create a hell of a mess wherever they go.

That being said i dated one but not only was she a narcissist she was also a manipulative pathological liar. I have always wanted to write about this demonic whore and how horrible she treated me but i don't even know where to start. The things she had put me through were not only intense but also insane and not a day goes by that i don't ask myself as to how i did not see the bright red flags. 

Am i mad at myself for it?. yea, yea i am but i can fully say that i am happily out of that toxic
ass relationship. 
 
I never knew how much of a shitty person she was until the day she sat me down and told me that she wanted more "love" from other people but did not want to end our relationship. Me being dumb & confused, laughed because i did not even understand as to what she was trying to imply, basically taking it as a joke because how on earth are you going to say that you love someone but also say that you would like to have a "open relationship". 

that night i came home from work and was about to rest up when i heard the door creak open and
the sound of not one but two people who came into our apartment studio. the sound of giggles and foolery echoed through the halls. foot stomping through the kitchen and into the bathroom, from there on i knew it.. i knew what was going on. That's when everything clicked. i realized how 
fucking stupid i was but honestly.. now that i look back on it, i shouldn't have been so hard on myself when in fact it was all her.

packed up all of my stuff and left that morning without saying goodbye and or quite frankly anything because truly narcissist ass bitches do not deserve an explanation. 

Now you're probably wondering as to why i am calling her a narcissist. 
well let me explain to you that for a whole 2 and a half years of being with that demonic whore, all i ever did was 
cater to her. 
 
Narcissists choose partners who will serve them, so when their partners tend to the narcissist's every whim, they often assume the role of a caretaker instead of a partner. The saddest part is that their partners are often gas lit to think that they have it "good" and or "you can't do better". when in reality they are just a host to a parasite. 

she was basically using me. 

after leaving the pathetically delusional bitch, she ran her whorish mouth around town telling everyone she knows that i abused her. When in fact all I ever did was tried my very best to keep her happy.

when a narcissist can no longer control you, they try to control how others see you by smearing your name. 

she basically manipulated herself into believing that she was abused so that she wouldn't feel 
bad for what she had done to me. 

anyways. Narcissists tend to mirror your entire personality. that's one of the easiest way to spot them. they honestly have no sense of self. just soulless ass parasites.

so please be safe out there. 

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