having a boyfriend is such a surreal experience

i've only had two boyfriends before my current one, and i haven't dated anybody since 2021
this boy loves me, kisses me, and wants to marry me !!!
like !!!! wowie !!!!!
i feel so special !!!!!
no one has ever loved me before like this, loved me for the real me and not their perception....
i am so incredibly joyful !!!!!!!
i miss him :(