social anxiety

now how do i just text people out of the blue. kinda feels like thats weiirddd >_> i always feel like a pest, and im too nervous to hold a conversation in person too (kinda feels like im either being mean or seeming uninterested.) but nothing gets done if you sit around and wait for ppl to text you first... Mmm so difficult and for what. this should be easier for government experiments (me)