idk if this is the right place for this but fuck it (TW: SH)

i just relapsed. i lost a bracelet that my friend gave me which took my mind off hurting myself snd i didn't have anything to fidget with plus i know he'd feel bad for me so I'm crying and i just cut my legs and arms (no blood) but I'm actually so sad i hate this this is the dumbest reason i've cut